"And... I'm just fine. I'm whole, I'm... I'm sound. I won." It was so much more than others have right now. "And it is my battle to fight and... I did so well and I." There's a frustrated sound that she forces not to go into another round of sobs. "I'm... trying to deal with this relationship that won't name itself. And I've been training for months and I had a plan. I don't know how to play poker. And even if I did, it's about luck."