She closes her eyes for a moment, biting hard into her lower lip. No one did take her seriously, always the child, always people believing she couldn't be any other Suit but the Hearts. She didn't want to be in Diamonds. Never wanted to be Clubs. And even if her Aunt hadn't made her afraid of Spades for so long, she wouldn't want to be in them either. She wasn't in any of those suits not because she would be bad, she wasn't because she didn't want to be in them. "But... I'm still alive and my mind's still functioning properly. I... should be." There are a lot of shoulds, but emotions are unfair like that. If they were fair, people would break down much more easily than they do.

"I'm... I'm not that fast. Not like some others. I think I do okay." There's a tiny smile though, at being called a star.