"What you need, Silas, is a therapist." The words were blunt, but she kept her tone gentle. "If this is how you feel, it's beyond fixing yourself. There's no shame in that."

She was quiet for a moment, though, because she understood the complications. The Deck had trouble with psychologists - and while the Diamonds had Nicholas, there was something that had always bugged Avery about him.

"Lucas went Outside," she finally said. "For his post-traumatic stress disorder. You could find someone Outside, or even a grief counseling group. You wouldn't be able to talk about the Deck, of course, but you could talk about Isaac."